I wanted to dedicated a post to one of my favorite photographs. Taken by yours truly! xo

Sigh… Jay Jay Jay (ha) I very often wonder what my life would be like if I didnt know you, if we werent so close. There would probably have been mornings where I would never have been able to develop the strength to get out of my bed.  You’ve been a huge positive influence on my life, and Im basically forever in debt to you.  Not only have you shared your words of wisdom, but.. your family, your home, your morals, and I love you for all of that.  ”my friends are the ground that keep me standing”

I hope you know you can count on me for anything <3  ps, thanks for the shameless plug on SlackerStyle. Youre the best interweb dweeb I know! Hahahaha. xo

Revenge is not really the exact word Im looking for but it will do for the time being.  This will be the first, last, and only post I will ever dedicate to this particular subject.  

Im generally happy with life, and I know that might be a hard concept to grasp but there’s no breaking that down this time, Ive got an extremely firm grip on who I am and who I want to be.  I’m only human, I make mistakes, I give in to temptation, I go against my morals, I lose sight of who I am.. but everything I’ve done, seen, heard, felt… all of it put me where I am today, and gave me the things I have, and I am entirely thankful.  Stepping outside of myself at times, I don’t think I made the greatest choices, but I lived my life, and I learned, growing up doesn’t happen overnight, and it sure doesn’t happen without experience.  Don’t dare speak about me, when you’ve made your own filthy mess.

You chose the life you live, and there’s not a single person you can place the blame on. I’m not there for you to drag through the mud anymore, you can carry your own weight now, are you strong enough? Or are you just going to keep sinking and sinking till inevitably theres no way out?  This hand has been extended to you more times than ever deserving.  Rest in peace, cause you’re dead to me. 

Happy, sad, moody, irritated, call it what you want.. it all comes with the territory of being female. bleehh. Im over it now, hopefully it’s passed. 

Getting ready to go to the beach today, the second time in a week, except hopefully this time the water wont send me into shock.

Ill give this another try when i have some time to clear my head.  I didnt realize how completely unmotivated i am right now. 

xo

knowing and telling a secret is a direct indication of who you really are.

i dont know how i manage to sleep till the very last second possible. Sometimes  I only leave myself enough time to throw on clothes, and brush my teeth.  I dont know how Im ever going to make it in the real world, waking up at 5? 6am?  work work work. blehhh.

So, I have a horrible habit of neglecting my internet blogging hobbies.  I can never just create something and stick with it.  Hopefully my life will remain interesting enough, to have stories to share.  If you plan on reading along, “Hello!”

<3 

I have yet to sleep, I think I’m going to really like using this little bloggy. Its 2:30 am, and the next time i will be getting a sufficient amount of rest will most likely not be until Monday. Someone better hope they make my coffee well tomorrow morning. goodnight xo.